Why don’t you tell anyone?

Dark room we meet in secret

Or not so secret

Because your mom knows and hates me

You make pretty promises

I know you can’t keep

Deep inside I’m screaming

To just run, escape while you can

Before you get hurt

But I ignore those warnings

I want to believe you

I want to love you and be loved by you

But you cannot nourish my soul

The way it yearns to be nourished

I tell you painful truths

That nobody knows

And you react

In a cold way, the way I knew you would

But hoped you wouldn’t

I told myself

“He said he would be more tender with me”

Abuse that you don’t believe

Needing your proof, saying things don’t add up

And I die inside

Because this response

The only reason I’ve held out

Was this exact response.

That I wouldn’t be believed

And ignored

And then you wonder why

I won’t tell anyone about it

Not even my family

Because nobody is going to believe me

You proved me right

So I sit in fear and silence

And wrap myself back up

In numbness, in ice

And I retreat back